My girls aren’t growing up the way I did. Very few kids do these days. In our house, my dad worked (and still does), he was the provider; my mom stayed home and raised my sister and me. My girls know two working parents. And parents now generally play both provider and nurturer, the luxury of someone staying home to raise kids is largely gone.
I think my father might concede that he had the easier lot. He has always worked as hard as anyone I know, during tax season he was out of the house before we woke up and we were in bed before he got home. But he could generally see his troubles coming. I don’t think my mom had a clue what she was in for.
Maybe sons try to emulate their fathers more. I struggle to fill his shoes and ultimately I never will, but I’ve realized I wear my own shoes–his docksiders are my Sanuks, his cross-trainers are my trail-running shoes. Mothers and sons are a different matter.
My mother saved me from drowning after I fell in the river before I could swim. I yelled at her for cheating me out of my chance to ride in the ambulance. At elementary school field days, she had a line backed up across the lawn for face painting (she is a Maryland Institute College of Art graduate). I never had a store-bought Halloween costume–from a Star Wars Jawa, to a Sand Person, to Boba Fett, to KISS’s Ace Frehley, my mom hand-made and assembled every costume and I won first prize in the fire department’s costume contest every year (during this same stretch my sister exhausted the Strawberry Shortcake character catalog and cleaned up equally well).
When it came to youth soccer, Little League Baseball, and youth lacrosse, my mom drove teammates and I to every away game. When I got into skateboarding, she endured Powell Peralta and Alva stickers all over her car, and carted us from Atlantic Skates and the Ocean Bowl in Ocean City to Island Dreams Surf and Skate shop in Towson where her parents lived. Thanks and praise is not often forthcoming from kids, I have come to realize, and it wasn’t for her then.
My mom was not a church-goer, but she and my dad decided that we should grow up going to church while we were young. So my mom took us and taught Sunday School. She has stacked up more than her share of good deeds and showing forgiveness. Some kids go through a rebellious phase. Some kids go through a complete-idiot-with-their-head-up-their-butt phase. I fell into the latter category. My oldest daughter just turned 17, and I am living through a bit of what my parents did; I have no idea why they didn’t leave me in a pit in the back yard for days or weeks at a time. My mom’s battles with my sister were of a different nature, but they were equally emotional. There is just no easy way to parent through adolescence.
My mom has had patience where most would falter. She made her kids’ passions and hobbies her own for many years–she can probably still rattle off the names of toys, dolls, or skateboarders from 30+ years ago. Our successes were hers, and our failures stung her worse than us. Talking to her on numerous occasions, she told me that her hope was that my sister and I “grow up to be good people.” That’s all any parent can ask for.
Now in her 70’s, she is active now in my daughters’ lives and my sister’s kids’, known now as “Grammy.” She everything from school and after school help, goes on field trips, attends awards assemblies, and on non-dog show weekends, can be found at field hockey, lacrosse, soccer, or baseball games for her grandchildren.
Trying to make a living, I think it has always been easier to appreciate what my father and grandfather did for their families, as providers. But once I became a parent, and as the girls have gotten older, it has become all the more clear what my mom gave us, as nurturer, cheerleader, nurse, chauffeur, homework helper, chef, household runner. You know, all the things that come into my mind when I say, “Mom.”
